I too have read so many times on here about forgiveness and apologizing for my part in this. I did apologize to my H a little in the beginning, but there is no way I could do that right now. Not after the last 2 years of his behavior. So I say this may be something that takes time, wounds to heal, then we may be at a place where we could do that.
Me 48 H 46 S 11 M 2004 BD 8/13 H moved out 2/15 -live in the present, enjoy the beauty around and within you, explore your new future-