Wow! I have felt so much the same way. Not sure I'll be able to look at her again the same way and I don't know if she'll look at me the same either. That's a big part of why she started cheating. At least her excuse. I do know love is a choice. It is actions and choosing to take action. She told me a week ago that she loves me more than anything in the world. My thought on this is....well you don't love me enough to stop talking to other men and to fight for our M.

Got to be the best me I can be with or with out her

Good luck to you too

Me 40
WW 41
D 4
S 12
S 14
BD 6.16.2015
W stopped wearing ring 9.4.15
W Filed Divorce 9.14.15
My ring off 11.15.15
D finalized 12.18.15
WXW (wayward X wife) moved out 1.28.16 got her own place