in house S (4)

[vise82]

Hey,

I picked up kids at school and took them to the school book fair, they each got a book.

W came home after me, I was making pancakes for dinner, W is eating healthy now so she had a special dinner she made for her. That also means that I am paying for half of what she eats. Just how it is now. We ate dinner as a family.

W also mentioned to me that she now has a gym membership and with it I could go there too but not the same time as her. We would have to both go there and sing me up. I said that I would like to look at the place first. I don't know why she offered it to me, either its nice of her or she is hoping to share the cost of the membership.

Had an interesting conversation with S4, he wanted to watch a DVD whle W took S6 to a class. I told him what he was watching wasn't n the player because I was watching my movie, he asked if I watched with mommy, I said no she didn't want to watch it with me. Truth, but poor guy, must be hard to not see your parents be affectionate with each other or watch movies together.

So I have been getting the lonely feeling that I read on other sit. I miss the closeness of human touch ect. Nothing I can do right now. The hurt of asking for a hug months back is still fresh in my mind. You don't touch a hot stove twice. But as I move around the house and have to pass her I want to just reach out to her. Also we were talking and I am standing in front of her and I notice how long her fingers are. It was like I was looking a her hand for the first time.

I have been keeping up my appearance and last night my oldest notice that with out my glasses I looked different and normal. I think W noticed to as she asked if I was going out also. I said I wasn't. But after the kids were in bed I took the dog out for a walk, My dog school GAL has moved to Sundays. Now on Tuesday I am open for something else. I was out for a while just to keep her guessing.

When she was at S8 class she was texting me, of course about thing for me to do while they are gone. I just texted back that S4 is having fun playing a game with me. She continued with telling me to give him a bath, Then I just replied that we are having fun doing xxx now. I did end up giving him a bath because he did need one.