I think the hardest part I am dealing with in terms of getting away from the craziness is working through my daughters fears in regards to their mother. They have all expressed a fear that their mother will attempt suicide again. They all react differently to this fear. I sometimes feel I have to deal with the exs craziness in order to help her thru issues so she does not sink too far into her own hole and get to the place again where she thinks the only way out is to do what she tried before. I feel this way mostly because I dont want my daughters to have to live with the consequences of it is she does do it and succeeds. I do tell my daughters that it is not their burden. That it is an illness and they just have to be compassionate and give her time and the space that she may need.
I think that maybe one area I made a mistake is that i have probably over protected my daughters from the consequences of my wife actions. I have tried to keep things going in their lives in terms of college choices and stuff that is getting beyond my means to support as a single dad. This has not allowed either my kids or their mother to see the full ramifications of my wifes decisions. This may have also slowed the process one way or the other. I am coming to the conclusion that I have to pull back on this significantly. I think maybe it is time I allow them all to grow up.
This is a hard road we are all on. You never realize how much mental illness can affect your family till it does.
Twisting on Life's Rope Me53 W53 M20 D21 D19 D16 BD 2-2013 D final 1-2015 _________________________ "Dream about tomorrow, Live for today, Learn from yesterday"
