Focus on living life as it is in this moment

[focus22]

Hi Sweetie,

I have read your posts and really admire your resilience.

Thank you.

I feel utterly exhausted. I work part time and also run my own business. Bizarrely, it's been one of my most successful months for my business (actually achieved a lifetime business dream!). But I've fallen so far behind with everything on that front and I'm desperately trying to catch up now and get things back on an even keel.

If within you are strong then you will cope.

Sometimes I just want to stop for a few moments and take a rest from the effort of trying to be strong and the effort of trying to cope.

I always questioned the expression heart ripped out. I think it is more a case of emotions for someone ripped out and what is left is a void that is looking for a next high of TLC.

You're right. And I'm very wary of this.

In the meantime, I'm working on really enjoying the company of other people whenever I'm out of the house, and of appreciating what they bring to a conversation.

I've always been very much in the shadow of my H. He's a total extrovert and very charismatic. For pretty much our entire M the focus was on him and supporting him in his absolutely stratospheric career.

I've always put my heart and soul into what I do, in everything. In that way, my H and I are really similar...we're both all or nothing people. My way is just much more low key than his, and less attention seeking.

One of the things I've discovered in these past six weeks or so that other people really like me and feel very kindly towards me. One of my two best friends texted me yesterday 'you are loved and cared for by so many people'. It made me cry yesterday when I read it, and it's making me cry again typing it this morning.

I hope you find that peace and love you deserve.

I always try and reply but often have little time or something different to say than what has already been said. So just keep quiet.

Thank you for replying too and I hope we keep in touch. Its always great to meet someone like yourself.

Keep smiling focus....

Hugs Max

Thank you.

Hope today is a good day for you.