Thank you HaWho for your positive vibes!

Took your advice and went to the beach for a walk. Its my calm place, I would love to live in a beach bach, that would be so idyllic to me.

h text me before I went, he wanted to know how my hol is going and am I relaxing. When I said yes, I am nearly back to my old self (but in a good way), he replied that it was well deserved and much needed. We text back and forth for a bit and left it in a good place. I will text him in a couple of days as per his request to contact him more often.

So now its a few ciders and nibbles on the porch in the sunshine, I am so destined for a coastal life ! One decision down lol.