Man, don't be so hard on yourself. You're entitled to feel bad about things and let it out. Honestly, while I've been moving forward as well, I came home one night a few days ago from running some errands, walked into the empty house, and started crying. No idea why. Maybe the empty house. Don't know. I had felt perfectly fine until then...or so I thought.
My experience of this has been that I've gone from feeling bad all the time to feeling good most of the time, with occasional 'bads' sneaking in. My IC tells me it's perfectly normal and he'd be more worried if I didn't feel bad sometimes. He said it's only a problem if it's not diminishing in frequency and intensity, or if we're refusing to let go of it because, in a twisted way, the pain and grief is a connection back to our marriages and some people refuse to let go.
Just keep moving forward bro. You're doing good I think.
Spiff69...my kids have reconnected with me in a big way...especially one son who I had been having a harder time with (both my fault and his). They have both opened up to me about things that surprised me. They are both angry at W and have been generally avoiding her. I do want them to get over that because I don't want them to alienate her, but I think they are the ones who feel alienated by her. I don't feel good about that, but I do take some comfort in the fact that they care about the marriage and family.
