I felt human last night, I felt as if I was ME. I slept even, not awaken by thoughts of visions etc. I'm beginning to believe that wondering WHY when there maybe no actual answer but she f'd up and she knew it and she ended it, could be the thing that kicks my ass. We need to say NEVER, never again can we let this happen again. We need to improve US.
At counseling on saturday, she didn't say much again and as usual I did most of the talking. Well I was a bit annoyed and I vented a little bit. I could see how upset she was, how sad she was.. I'm trying to put the pieces together of me, and we are working on us. She's doing the little things which is awesome.
I'm trying to get ME back, trying to stop my thinking of IT... I'm trying to heal. I love her, and I hope we can get through this and she does too.
