I think all of those same thoughts, exactly, and then I think "what if he really doesn't love me, really does believe I am an abuser, really will be happier without me and I am just clinging to him." But then there is the upcoming job, he will have freedom, I will not call him, I will not pursue. It will be in his hands. I will continue to validate and be kind and if that is not enough for him, well, that's the best I have, so I guess it will be over.
I, too, think the opposite thoughts. Its a tug of war inside that I don't know how to stop. I have a serious question about this upcoming freedom - as we are in the same boat - since they won't be near us and completely separated/cut-off and all, just how are we (you and your H; me and my W) supposed to work on us and grow our marriage if there is no contact? How are we supposed to "work on us" if there isn't contact? How are we supposed to work on us by not actually doing anything other than seeing if we miss that person? Sorry for the little mini-rant...
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
