Spiff, I think all of those same thoughts, exactly, and then I think "what if he really doesn't love me, really does believe I am an abuser, really will be happier without me and I am just clinging to him." But then there is the upcoming job, he will have freedom, I will not call him, I will not pursue. It will be in his hands. I will continue to validate and be kind and if that is not enough for him, well, that's the best I have, so I guess it will be over.
