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[vise82]

Hey thanks for checking in OTW and Fogg,

Yes I am at a funny place right now, I think I am on the up swing of the cycle of grief.

This month should, I hope be better as it seems W and I are going to put any R talks away and focus on the holidays. Feels like some pressure is off us.

When we were talking about it I was really close to mentioning about her looking for a guy. but I kept my mouth shut. It drives me nuts know she is actively looking for someone else. The Best man didn't work out for her right now but she is willing to wait till he moves back into the area in a year to pursue him. She is talking to her divorced friend and she has had three dates in 5 years, telling my W that there is no guys out there. This is the one pushing her to get away from me.

I noticed how W focus was all over the map, guys, lack of sex, houses, S agreements, my mental health.

This needs to be a month of what I am going to, get my stuff ready for what is going to happen. Plan for the worst. How I am going to make it work for me.

I can put off the sale of the house for as long as I need.