The Next Day...

[mahhhty]

GB, I agree with Julie your advise is spot on and appreciated. What isn't is the condescending tone.

Writing a letter to myself is something that I find very very difficult. And it is soo far outside my comfort zone or something I would normally do, that I want to do it just for that reason.

I have no proof that she was with anyone until maybe March or June. However, we had these conversations many times, it could have been her wanting too or just a kiss or sex. I have no idea. But I'm sure she was involved in something. June was the newspaper on the back seat. March was another pic on social media. On Jan 15 she denied having the kids to have her birthday alone. The OM could definitely have been there. There is no doubt in my mind that she manipulated everyone involved to get what she wanted.

I've been really busy with the startup. Had a great weekend demo'ing the space. Also went kayaking with a bunch of friends. On Friday night I went out to eat with my parents, and they were probing me a little bit about the d. At one point I said very matter of factly, that I would have done anything to keep my family together. I think that sums it up. I would have done anything and everything, I just needed someone to do it with.

I miss the kids horribly. I haven't called to talk with them since they left Friday. I honestly just don't want to hear her voice or interact with her.

I'm going to call tonight or try to skip out to take them to lunch.