Lost Hope (5)

[JulieH]

I don't know if sensible was right word. Just calm. Almost like he was trying hard to keep me from getting angry. Felt like there was a lot of underlying threats though. I did end up feeling guilty for our relationship. He kept saying that everyone he tells about my comment that made him leave, feels like it was despicable and horrific. And that he thought long and hard about his decision and worried everyday that he was wrong.

I felt like we were just on 2 different wavelengths. I want so badly to know if there is other woman.

I felt like I just couldn't validate, because at time I just didn't care. But truth is I do, and want nothing more then for him to work on reconciliation. This time around I didn't ask though because in past every time I did I was rejected. There is no hope at this point.