Thanks Mutatio - I think I have achieved that level of detachment. I remember going to a movie this time last year and having the feeling of complete and utter hopelessness not wanting to be seen by anyone. Sitting through the movie feeling dread and despair and sadness. Even though I was there with my son I felt so alone Every part of being at the threatres and watching preview reminded me of H - I use to love going to movies with H- Now a year later (and i never thought i would survive a year without H) last night at the movies with the kids I didn't think of H at all
My kids are all over 18. So I don't have to worry about a babysitter. Just the motivation to go out. This weekend for example my sister invited me to go watch her H sing in a nightclub. I don't want to go if it is going to be couples. That make me feel crappy - reminds me that I am not part of a couple - I have been part of a couple for 33 years (I know I keep referencing that but it's almost my whole life - we have been together since we were 18) and we were a fantastic couple! Now my H is telling people we never should have been together - he is rewriting our entire history - it is beyond painful
