I am feeling somewhat lost today. Went to sleep last night with the thoughts above. I woke this morning feeling as if this whole thing was just a bad dream and then realized it was not. I think I may have been dreaming of being together but I did not sleep well so I am not able to recall it clearly. Does any of this makes sense? I guess too much in my life is incapable of making sense right now. I try living minute by minute as I work through a lot of this and sometimes things and situations become convoluted. Days feel like weeks some times.
I was speaking with someone yesterday and I said it had been a couple of weeks since contact with W. This morning I realized it has not even been 1. Somehow the distance feels much much greater than it really is. I feel I am moving forward just as much as I am sliding back. One foot in front of the other, just keep going . . .
