What you've described w/the eyes is called "shark eyes". This is one of the characteristics of MLC/depression. I point out quite often that the eyes are the window to the soul and that's true. When the shark eyes are present, their soul is very dark at that time, hence, the depression. Eventually, the eyes will regain the sparkle...but it takes a lot of time for that to happen.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
