Rouky, I know this is the most disrespectful thing to say and probably I should go to confession, but it would be so much easier if he died. And you have a good point, the man I married is dead, I do not know who this guy is. I do see glimpses though, but he's buried deep.
My IC said the same thing as you about the hurt.
I am sorry you are in limbo too. It is so hard. I will be ok. I am going through a huge "down" been 2 solid weeks already. This is the biggest "down" since May. I think I need it on some level, my brain needs to work through some issues before I can move on to the next step. Either that or I need antidepressants.
