Hi Rouky. I am not dreading Christmas this year. It is my second Christmas without H. Last Christmas I was in deep deep mourning could barely function. BD had just happened and i had thought surely he would come back for the Holidays We still talked all the time and we followed our usual traditions. I asked him to do all the shopping for the kids because i couldn't go to malls and see all the joy and excitement of family's, and hear the joyful music etc. it was a horrible horrible time. I don't feel that way this year so that's something!
