Pho, I totally relate to you regarding the limbo situation, but what I read and hear is someone really hurt. What good does this do to you? My H is with OW, cold, cruel, rude but won't file for D (there is also no legal paper indicating separation) still have his mail delivered here, and comes and goes as he pleases him! I can't no longer bear it, so I told myself that he is dead! Which in fact he is (I mean the man I married), and I say to myself shall I put my life on hold because I'm a widow! The answer is NO.
I know it's hard to detach but you have to for your own sanity. What good would you be for your kids if their mum breaks down? You are amazing and it breaks my heart to see you like that. Please look after yourself! x