Ellie, there is some of that. I started to imagine Matt in our life today... Yikes.
For this daily toker, he's not much of a free spirit like I am. I don't know what I think.
I think it was Matt being more honest than I'm accustomed too. It was me, not lecturing and being in a strangely strong place in dealing with him.
Besides that, I don't know. Honestly.
I'm not shutting the door completely. But, I'm also not slowing the train down to allow him a chance to get on. He needs to SHOW me some progress for the train to slow down.
I do, however, see how he has been speaking this language slowly, gradually, for some time and seems to becoming more honest with himself as time moves on.
Still, not sure he is the guy for me. Doesn't really matter at this point, though, not looking for a relationship. Just looking to feel happy again. Feel alive, feel like life is worth living. And, I'm achieving this goal in spades.
He probably senses this. The connection is still there.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
