Scrant, I can see how that would be difficult but I agree with the others on the hugs and kisses. It's obvious your W still have an attachment to you and she really needs to learn that you will not accept the behavior she keeps putting you through.

If you do want your W back in your life a few things will need to happen. She will have have to figure out her own issues and that's out of your control. She will have to feel a legitimate fear she can lose you and you will have to grow and get to a place where you no longer accept this behavior from her. The cycle will continue if not That you will not be the side plan always waiting for her after she has an A and you are moving to show her through your actions. Don't worry so much about wanting to stay connected with her and sharing with her. Look at it ad thr only way to a healthy relationship with her is to let her go and don't be her lifeline until she commits to you and only you. You can do this with love and strength without being cold toward her. Doing good so far, just work on the physical signs of affection to her.

Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be