I think you have to reclaim the personal power first and then the situations to be 'personally powerful' in will naturally unfold.

You sound pretty powerless in the post above my friend - almost waiting for fate to intervene..

Have you read NMMNG?? Are you taking responsibility for your own anxieties and working on those?

Feeling better within the situations is all within your gift, but it does take some focused effort on your part...

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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus