Wayward Wife, my addiction, advice needed

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A bit of a journal here...

I've noticed that sometimes when I get home from work I'm really dreading coming home. Today was one of those days.

Wife was in ok mood, and shoveled the driveway and front sidewalk. I brought home take and bake pizzas, and started making them. Fixing minecraft on my daughter's computer right now, but wife is just self absorbed in her cell phone on the couch.
So, she's not bothering me or being confrontational, but I'm just non-plussed I'm here. I'd rather be in the house without her.

This is starting to happen more, where I'd feel better if she just wasn't here. I'm also starting to get irrationally worried about tomorrow's meeting with the counselor. As my personal counselor says - acknowledge the feelings, and if they make you comfortable or uncomfortable. Right now, I'm uncomfortable, but not exactly sure why.

Maybe it's just me detaching? I do know that my emotional needs have not been met in the marriage for years, and now that I know that, I'm starting to see the marriage as something that needs tremendous work. I just don't think the wife wants to do the work, and I have moments that I now think I don't, either.

I can't live in an open marriage, and I can't have a wife who won't be invested in me as well.