I'm good. Just Matt doing his Matt Thang. It's the holidays after all! What would the holidays be without Matt telling me he missed hearing my voice!!
Maybe I should do some voice-overs? Guess I have that special sound in my voice.
Weird thing... I think what freaked me out... Well, first off, he contacted me via an Internet messaging thing that the girls and I use for free. He had to search me up and that sorta weirded me out. I know he is studying my FB page and the stalking what he can with the girls. It's just a little odd and freaky.
Apparently, there's some regret?? Searching for something??
Whatever. But, what really gets me is... because he is so silent for these long periods... he has become a fantasy. He is this guy that I loved and grew up with and... When he reveals the REAL him and comes outta the shadows, it's sorta scary. BECAUSE???
Because, I'm not sure I want him anymore. I would swipe left if I came across his profile online. Smoker, frequent drinker... IDK. I guess I'm ok with the fantasy of Matt getting his shid together... but, the reality is much more WEIRD and AWKWARD.
I feel like that girl in high school who was relentlessly pursued by this guy (Matt) who was a bit of a loser, lacked confidence and seemed a little too clingy.
Have been invited on another date by another man.
Decided to volunteer with a local restaurant to help for a Thanksgiving meal. NO COOKING. There will be music, lots of people and Louisa and I will be doing community service! Plus, I will be working--taking photos--so, I'm excited. Way diff. than sitting in our snowy outpost last year with just the three of us. :-)
I got this.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
