When I was younger I loved going to amusement parks. I was fond of roller coasters more than anything else. Since BD I have grown sick of them and have not even been on one in years. I feel I am currently riding down a steep drop on one. Today went well if I take everything in to perspective. So what happened?
I am on my own right now and it is a little too quiet. I think it is interesting how I would take advantage of these moments while together. We would do nothing at all and for some stupid reason I felt I still needed more of that. More time alone.
For W anything with me would have been welcomed. Whether it was watching tv or just a walk with the pets. I was dumb numb and could not see the loneliness I helped create. I was unable to see the void because I was too busy creating it.
At this point I would do anything just for a phone call to hear that voice that has been missing from my life for too long. It will just have to do that I have the quiet time alone I felt I needed back then. Shaking my head in disbelief.
