in house S (4)

[vise82]

Hey,

Out of now were W emailed me about Christmas today.

I want to say keep it the same for the kids, lets do what we did years before. I want to go to the inlaws to show my changes and how crazy my W is for wanting to leave.

But DB says to keep her out of your life act like you are moving forward. Have Christmas at home with the kids if W wants to be there it fine , if not that ok to. Then after she can bring them to the my inlaws.

She wants to know if we are getting gifts together for the kids. I thought we said we were. But when I agreed to that I felt like it was the wrong thing to do as she wanted to spend a lot on them$$$

Why is this so hard.

I think I know what I want then I change my mind.

Would I want to do the same as last year for christmas like nothing changed, sure because my W has not had a PA, there seems like there is a chance for us, though if you talk to my W she would say she is done.

I didn't think we would be in the same house at this time when BD started. I was hoping we would be so that we could have Christmas together. For the kids and everything to just stop and have Christmas like we are not separated.

Should I ask for that and let my W decide?