do nothing or what

[roist]

I have found some strength in just writing this here.Thank you for the replies, so far.

I know this is not where my focus needs to be. I am working hard on positive actions and rebuilding me.

I want to do what gives my M the best chance to survive. Ending or making a stand against a v possible EA feels necessary.But that is my problem this does not feel like a decision. I feel forced to do it. I see, understand and agree with that feeling, but it was not my decision.

Often here it is said that when ever we feel a need to act it is usually not Tue best thing to do.

I have just lost another half days work time over this.
I am not happy about that.I thought I was improving my focus at work. This cannot continue. Aghhh.