Ghost Working on getting Stronger and Fitter

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I have no control
I cannot control this
I do not get to decide

You are focusing on the wrong stuff here, Ghost.

You have complete and total control over you.
You have complete and total control over the things you do, the things you say, and the way you feel.
You have complete and total control over your relationships with your children.

There are MANY things which you get to decide.

Start focusing on those things.