Jpeg, I keep thinking I should go back to court and see if they will let me take forms back.
More often then not, There is one part of me that thinks he chose to leave he should pay CS. He has been neglectful and there is possible affair. We are incompatible and I am better off without him. He is the bad guy. It is not fair that he walked away and left his responsibilities for my family to take care of.
There is another part of me that loves him and wants nothing more then for us to reconcile. He has a lot of great qualities but i just brought him down. I never built him up enough. I could have done so much more. This is my fault. Im the bad guy that started it all. That he does love me and with time and space he will remember the good things. I am being unfair by filing and by doing it the way I did.
I know....crazy right?
Julie I am no where near be able to provide wise advise but I DO totally understand how you are feeling I felt/feel the exact same way. I wanted to do the same thing. Go back and unsigned the papers. I feel like I have played right into H plan. He wanted me to start the whole legal process so he wouldn't be the bad guy so to nudge ( or push ) me to he stopped paying his share of expenses. I just wish I could have afforded to do nothing. But then I KNOW my H is living with OW and spending money on her/them that should be put towards his kids so..,.. People have been telling me for months that I must be smart and look after my finances and those of the kids . I don't know what is going to happen but we have both taken a step out of limbo and are moving forward
