Yes. Thanks for the reminder. I have to remind myself of this. Sometimes I go into denial, because there was a time he had great love for me and it is hard to accept that this actually ended. That we will go forward as enemies is very hard to accept. He flat out told me the only thing that bothers him in all of this is the financials he will lose. I also was reading our texts from before he left and can see how hard I was trying and how he was just gone.
I want so bad to believe that he still has love for me and will one day deeply regret this. Sometimes I feel that he will only regret it if I prove to him what a selfless person I am and be patient with him. Truth is he takes advantage of and is actually rude to the people that enable him (his mom) but ended up giving in (but complaining about) to the people that made sure his actions had consequences (my mom)
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015
