Zues, thanks for posting and for support. I hope you and your family are doing well. I feel like I have been having some good days of detachment and hope for a future with or without him. But then there are some days I just feel like a horrible person and really mourn for my husband.
I regret this act but not sure why. I can't say it was impulsive as it's been 4 months. Was it antagonistic? Feels a bit like a betrayal, which doesn't make sense because he is the one that left (although still no proof of affair)
Perhaps it's because I just couldn't be that positive, friendly, validating, person that I was advised to be in order to effectively divorce bust. I wasn't big enough or humble enough, or selfless enough. I have pride and just couldn't be a friend despite his rejections of me.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015
