Sotto, everything you posted above makes perfect sense. I do the same spin cycle in my head, and I too have to remind myself not to worry about these things unless they actually happen.
I think many of us actually worry about the "what if they come back" and the "do I even want him/her anymore?"
I believe that's why the vets say to use this time as a gift. For this exact reason so that we will know when/if it happens.
Your strength inspires me. Hope you are having a good night
Me 48 H 46 S 11 M 2004 BD 8/13 H moved out 2/15 -live in the present, enjoy the beauty around and within you, explore your new future-