Hi Di, I am sorry to hear of your hard days. It must be difficult to move all that stuff alone. I don't know whats worse the kitchen with a million things, some breakable or the beds which are few but bulky and hard to manage. Double yuck in my book.
"What the he** did my H do to me?" We are/were in love and slowly surrendered little pieces of ourselves for "us". After a while it adds up and when the marriages falters or fails, we are left with missing parts. You will be whole again one day, with deeper wisdom, greater fortitude and a stronger heart. Your almost there, Be well