Just got back from a great week on the east coast with my oldest friends. While it was hard to have to explain a number of times what has happened in this past year, they were incredibly supportive.
Lots of my male friends would be natural DB'ers. I heard a number of times, "It doesn't matter why she left, she left, and now what you do with your life is up to you. So what are you going to do with your life?"
Was wonderful to be around people that have known me for 30+ years and have their undying support.
I spent a lot of time on the phone and on the web designing next year. I've spoken about this a bit on here but have officially decided to take the entire year off and travel after selling my business. It may have an element of running away in it, but I'm not that concerned. I didn't ask for my M to suddenly end, despite my role in it's demise. I've admitted my faults, gotten help, sought out counsel, listened and assimilated, and still it seems like I'm headed for D. So be it.
The more time and energy I put into planning the trip and designing it to be service oriented the better I feel, and truthfully, the less I miss my W. There is definitely a humility that comes from BD, one I didn't have before. I want to help people on a much deeper level than I've done in the past and believe that getting out into the world is the first start.
Thank you to everyone that's dropped by this thread in the past week, even if I don't get to respond to all of you, it means so much to me.
PP
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
