Azz, I admit, that phone call did send me spinning. A few things actually have since last weeks events. The difference now seems to be inside me. I'm more at peace. I honestly feel like a different person. I can see, I do still look into things too much at times. The thoughts aren't like they were before though... It may be a habit I have to break, the looking into things. I feel like that kinda wired itself into my brain over the past months?

As far as being "done", that is where my heart sits now. I'm sure she could convince me otherwise yet. I know I have back peddled on a lot of things through this past year but this line I drew isn't any easy one for me to slide to the "next line" if you know what I mean? For this one to move, it would definatly take a very big effort on her part.

My eyes are very open to any possibility now. I have not begun dating but I won't be sitting back anymore either. She has made her choice and I respect that. It doesn't mean I agree with it, but I can move forward without her and not feel guilt at this point.


Me 34, XF 27
Many years together
Son 4
Engaged
Not engaged
Many false starts by XF
7/16 new girlfriend comes into my life
2/17 girlfriend moves in my home