Spiff, it has been a tough, bumpy, long road. I don't envy anybody just starting this journey. I'm not out of the woods yet, I feel my next "signpost" on healing will be when I can go a full 24 hours without thinking anything about XF. No what ifs. No I wish she were here. No I wish she would call. Nothing at all. I am a far way from that yet, or I wouldn't be looking at a phone call and analyzing it...

I have made some big progress over the past week and a half. Mon, tues, wed last week I honestly thought she came around. I saw the old XF in every interaction. She would reach out to see how my day was. Opened up more than the past 6 months combined. It was a huge "up". Then Thursday came and she put her walls back up. Huge "down". I feel as if the rollercoaster got to wild for me and I stepped off. I can stomach a lot but that one isn't for me buddy.

Me 34, XF 27
Many years together
Son 4
Engaged
Not engaged
Many false starts by XF
7/16 new girlfriend comes into my life
2/17 girlfriend moves in my home