Hi Rottz, I don't have much time today to post....I've been in lala land so long I'm behind at work and gotta do double time to catch up. I feel a little calmer, kind of, today; still thinking about what to do w/touchy new aspect of sitch....
last week (wed.) was the ugly incident with H's "Ill take S to religion class" email, no repeat of it so far, but I'm kind of on guard, not real sure how to handle it if he throws that out today. it makes me nuts either way, I think I'll stick to Bills suggested reply from last week about, thanks for the offer, I've got it covered.....
Life is so complicated....H is so much warmer and more talkative than he was last week....he sat for an hour at the table just chatting when he got home after a 12-hour day yesterday. Thats like we used to do way back in the "olden days", and feels so good. I try to put anything else I "should" be doing out of my mind and just enjoy sitting and talking with him...."played around" at bedtime at his initiation, (safely, I might add) although we were both tired. Monday night he invited me to go for a walk and that was so great, also like old times; he talked about getting the camper ready, things we always used to love to do. He's still joking around, telling the dog to "keep that woman away from me!", so much warmer than last week when he was so cold and angry and distant. I hope these are baby steps that last, I guess I have trouble believing they happen because of something I did....maybe I need to work on that...I saw that on someone's thread here.
Of course, my crazy-making worry is that he's so cheerful because things are great w/OW, but he sure looked upset when he came in the door Sat. evening....don't know for sure what to think.
I guess I need to focus on figuring out what I did to bring on more of the babysteps, believe they are real, and stay calm whatever comes up w/class tonight.
the only thing I can think of I did was making such a big effort to help w/car buying but then turn it over to him and back off; and doing more of the "when times were good" stuff...just talking, listening, hugging, etc. I guess the backing off was a 180 for me....now if OW is just dumb enough to get in there and chew his rear about it.....
