I'm already just blown up by her actions... I don't know that I'll love again really, and never as much as I loved her. and I know trusting someone the way I trusted her prior to her A will never happen again. I have to work through all of this, and have to work through alot, but that's fine! I'll be an EVEN BETTER MAN in the end.
Try not to think of future love stuff, because that is far, far down the road. Get yourself straight first. It may take a long time just to be in the right place to date again. I know that if my W goes ahead with the divorce, I won't be ready. I am just now learning to walk again.
I'm not looking past right now! I'm realizing that I AM WORTHY OF MORE! Loving someone so much and they take you for granted and then totally defies you and just looks at you as an afterthought, just makes me open my eyes. I need to be good for me for my kids!
I'm training hard, and reading a couple books "5 love languages" and "the power of positive thinking", and I've gone back to Church.. strong mind strong body strong soul.
