Thank you everyone for all of the attention you have been giving me on my thread.
I have a lot going on in my mind. Mostly 1- things are moving very slowly in the right direction, I need to stick to DB'ing and stay patient 2- I need to continue validating as that is key 3- I need to take care of my own emotions because I am feeling more depressed lately and having trouble coming out of it. 4- I may never get my needs met in this R (if the R even survives) and I will at some point have to make a decision about that, what I am willing to give up, what I am willing to put in without getting back. I think it will come down to what is in the best interest of the children. Right now I am thinking that we will survive. 5- Would it really be so bad if I got a boyfriend on the side? You know, just for sex, to relieve the tension, I am sure I could DB much better without the tension. OK, threw that one in to see who is paying attention. (But it did cross my mind!)
Thank you all. I love you all. I hope all of my ramblings have not driven you to madness with me, sometimes I feel I post too much, but then again, I don't have that boyfriend I mentioned above so this is where my emotional energy goes. I truly feel better after posting. Thank you.
