I wonder what happened? I feel like I've found the inner thoughts and phrases I keep repeating to myself, and the realization that 'HEY! I AM A GOOD MAN! I AM A GOOD FATHER! I AM MORE THAN A SAFETY BLANKET! MORE THAN HER CHEARLEADER! I DESERVE TO BE LOVED THE WAY I LOVE!"
It's like BAM! Either I started believing it or I just realized this! no more being codependent! No more being the door mat wanting to be loved.. My kids love me and respect me and know what a great father i am! That's what counts!
She needs to win me back, and she's not showing me anything. ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS!
She chose another person over me, an schemed for a couple months to go and be with this guy, and never thought of me! Never thought of what I would feel or how betrayed and hurt I am! And didn't think of what it would do to our family! This is now OUR AFFAIR, and WE have to deal with it and not just brush it under the carpet.
I can tell you the fact that I'm not initiating texts, talk or hugs etc, she is taking notice.
