just bumping new stuff in sitch for input from anybody! when the plot thickens, it really thickens....
I just had follow-up Dr appt.. it seems I do have a little gift from a friend. What I understood is that I am definitely positive for HPV (thank god HIV was neg.), now tests are being done to determine how agressive a form of the virus I have. My understanding is this is the virus that causes genital herpes (I've never had any lesions) and cervical cancer (fun, fun)I believe this is considered an STD so public health law requires partner disclosure and notification???? I'm not sure how that works, but I think the health dept. has to notify your partners. Does anybody know much about this, how the notification process works? I'm trying to think what to do next....I'm thinking I should say something to H before he gets Hlth. dept. notification, right? my understnding from talking w/dr, something else I need to clarify, is that if I'm positive, we all three are.....oh well, I hate to say it (actually not really), but revenge is sweet, nasty little nurse, who of all people ought to know better for a lot of reasons, gets bit in the butt by her own crap. yep, it'll work for me. hehehehe
Ok, so now I get to think about unconditional love. I've been asking myself if it changes the way I feel about H & our R & M. answer I come up with is "nope".....I'm still "in", I still want him/it. I knew when I found out about the A that this was a possibility, and have had my eyes wide open, so I guess I'm just glad it's not HIV or hepatitis.
I am very much afraid that H is going to be so upset that he will be really weird. I brought up this possibility when I first found out about the A, and he was/is so enamored w/his precious OW that he just couldnt see there could be any possiblity of such a thing (yeah, right, duh).........
anybody know much about either the virus or the notification process? i can sure use some help thinking through what to do now..........
Another issue is that Dr. was a roommate in college, so H always tends to think we are in "cahoots" about stuff....which is not accurate, she is always very professionally distant about such stuff, I guess the tests that have been done several times are pretty definite
