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[vise82]

I am feeling stronger.

I feel W does not change my mood as often.

I feel that she needs to go through this temptation, have the choice to cross that line of PA to find out what she is truly feeling inside, Like OTW says.

Dropping the rope I am finding just happens after time, after doing the work.

Yesterday W sent an email about us going to my S6 cooking class because he cooks a meal for us. She also motioned she will be going to fat club one day a week.

I replied that the date was fine I had nothing going on that day and that I thought she didn't need to go to a fat club as I didn't think she was fat. She didn't reply back.

So she is ok with us going to that event as a family to my sons event, but not to her brothers.

I first felt that after the wedding she faced the temptation and she did nothing. I was thinking that maybe she was looking back. But now that she is looking for a OM and is planning on joining a gym to loose weight, I think I am wrong. WW is WW.



When I arrived home after work, I did the dishes and emptied the dish washer. No big deal. But instead of getting good feed back I got a list of other things to do. I ignored it and didn't do them.

Its funny when you read 100s of other peoples threads/posts and then months later I see the same thing is happening to me.

When I got my hair cut the other day the hairdresser was listening to me about my sit she asks if I have been going out. I haven't been going out socially, I have no friends right now and she is the only person in my world I have told. She has been cutting my hair for aver a year now and I text her to set up appointments. She tells me some of her problems. Money is tight for her and her kids. I recently won a $100 gas card at a work conference. I really don't need it, she needs it more then me. Is there any problem giving it to her?

This morning, I said good morning to W like she was a neighbor. I took care of the kids like she was not there, I made sure they got hugs and love yous, I took care of the dog. I said my good byes to the kids and said good bye to W. All with purpose and confidence.

I am applying for a promotion at my work today, one reason why is because I am scared to get the position.