I agree with you that we should hold a contest to see who is the Queen of Backslide here! You know by now I am also in that category. But having said that, it is ironic that everytime we backslid, we'll get better at our DBing, we have new strength and new wisdom.
I look at your sitch and I was thinking, at least you have H at home with you (or is it? Or I thought so?)! Not that I say it's easier or anything, as I believe that every sitch is unique and has its own challenges. But I'll do anything to have H with me at home.
My H is living with OW, and every waking moment that I have, I cant help but visualize that H is with her when he is not with me, which is almost 7 days a week. he calls me but he calls OW more, and he is saying that he will be home soon! I just read DR again and this time it gets to me when Michelle said that focus on problem free times and enjoy that moment. I;m trying to do that and I hope you will too.
I know its difficult when your H seems to be testing you. My H also is scrutinizing my every move, which is killing me, and every time I seemed to say or do the worng thing, he will drill me on it. Feels like I am walking on eggshell nowadays.
There's a thread called its not too late here, cant remember the poster, but she gave me hope. Go check her out if you havent.
Take care...
Sometimes the very thing you're looking for is the one thing you can't see..
