Last night, I had a few heated discussions about next steps with some of my close friends. The whole idea of OM coming to live in our state, work in our company, and possibly spending time in our home is really affecting me. I saw that one of my options was to move back into the home, but my friends feel that that is coming from a place of weakness due to the fact that I waited till OM came into the picture. I disagree because I plainly made it clear from the beginning of our separation that this isn't something I would accept. They state that the best approach is to begin doing what I need to do legally and force the sale of the home instead.
All of the discussions last night made me feel bad, and made me realize that I need to begin stopping all the talking about my situation. I am empowering it by speaking so much about it, it keeps me stuck on the past and that's not where I need to be. Had my session with IC yesterday, and he tells me that I may end up with the little ones, the funny thing is that others have said the same.
I am feeling a bit anxious this morning, I hate resetting and getting back to 1 emotionally. One day at a time.
M: 34 W: 33 S: 7 S: 14 months BD: 6/2015 Separation: 6/2015 Back and Forth between Home and Moms
