We have gotten some much needed rain, all at once it seems, but we needed it.
S6 is now S7! Have a gift to give him, so I will see him tonight.
I am feeling much better inside my own head lately.
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Detachment: I am not constantly obsessing anymore
I am starting to look forward to my life without W if it comes to that
I have found a piece of land that I can build on... on a small lake with a woods behind it
I have been vehicle shopping, and if it does become final I will buy a decent truck with part of the settlement, then start on the house
I am able to sit in the rental now, and not go nuts. A month ago, you would only see me there with the boys or if I was sleeping
I feel that I am coming to grips with the fact that W may never get back to her old self, even though she is starting to act that way
There will be a talk soon. Probably won't go the way that I want, but I hate limbo. I hate that u can't answer my boys when they ask me questions. I hate that my W can carry on our life, while I am scraping by. I would love to know if we are ready to start working on us, or start our seperate lives so that all 5 of us can begin to heal.
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
