thanks Rotz, I appreciate hearing from you....it helps so much. I hate to say it, but if I get a positive test result, I will have a really really really tough time w/the unconditional love part. but, not gonna go across that bridge unless I have to.
anyway, he is so incredibly hypersensitive and I can't believe how fast stuff changes with him. last weekend was SO GREAT. I just can't believe that has all gone completely down the tubes. surely it hasn't....I gotta remind myself from MNdad's post about things getting worse as they are getting better. It's just hard to comprehend how fast things change and how all-over-the-place H can be.
I still wonder if OW wasnt putting the screws to him about meeting her last night...I just kind of have a feeling she was. I which case, I have to admit I don't have a whole lot of regrets about what I did even if it did make him mad, because I don't think he saw her last night, and I know he would have had he taken S. I pretty sure he didn't see her because i did put my arm around him when I got home, and I hate to sound gross, but he'd been walking the treadmill and lifting weights and not just his shirt but even his shorts were soaked with sweat in the back. oh well, I'm gonna try to regroup and get the good stuff going again this weekend, no mention of OW, no R stuff unless h brings it up (he won't) I gotta get a little detachment back somehow...deep breaths, I guess, a walk, take S somewhere while H does "paperwork"; give him time to calm down
