I can look past all that at this point because I know the her nobody else sees. And it's been ugly lately. As far as feeling the loss and me being in charge, I don't know what I would do at this point. It would be nice to have that chance someday but I honestly feel like I would tell her she had her chance. This is all current feelings so who knows what I would say tomorrow. But I can say that today, the only reason I would hear her out would be for S4.
You're right, and fortunately you don't have to make that decision today. You are seeing her for what she is, not some idealized version that saw only the good side that we all tend to see in our spouse/partners. Now if she does come back, you'll be able to fall in love with the real her. If that day comes, it will be a stronger love than the earlier version, and more cherished, because you will have paid a higher price. Still, that is all a big ? out there in the fog of the future. You are doing right to put one foot right in front of the other and live in the reality that is right now. And that reality is about you and your S. Believe me, that is not a place most people are.
Me: 50 W:43 S6, S3 M: 12 yrs. T: 17 M is bad & Not happy Bomb Mar '14 S 5 Feb '15 D Bomb 13 Apr '15 (but "no hurry") DB Coach May '15 Wants proceed on D Aug '15 Starting 1-on-1 negotiations Sept '15
