I know you are facing a lot, and it would make anyone sick.
I know it seems hard to imagine relaxing, but try at least to treat yourself. Get a massage, buy yourself some flowers, get a friend to take you out to a comedy club. Something. You deserve some kindness and care. If it were a friend you'd do it for them. Be your own friend too.
Me: 50 W:43 S6, S3 M: 12 yrs. T: 17 M is bad & Not happy Bomb Mar '14 S 5 Feb '15 D Bomb 13 Apr '15 (but "no hurry") DB Coach May '15 Wants proceed on D Aug '15 Starting 1-on-1 negotiations Sept '15