Since you keep bringing up living in a different house maybe you should make a list of things you will like in a new house/apartment. You keep mentioning how it will be so horrible and if you keep that attitude it will be.
You can make it an awesome thing to look forward to(if it comes to it, since its out of your control) or you can make it a miserable hellhole. Its your choice, W isn't the one who will decide what you make of your life.
Good books to read. I did both also and they are very useful for understanding so many things about who we are and why we acted in the ways we did.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be