I know. And so begins the process. The hard part is going to be the validating, holding your tongue, keeping happy etc. Also, and this is big, figuring out what you did or didn't do in your m that contributed to it not being healthy. I mean, I think about the kissing part a lot. Personally. It was telling me something. You don't want to be the guy that that would ever happen to again. You need to make those changes, but not for her, for you, or they won't stick. Need to start doing the opposite. Think about the stuff she made fun of you for or yelled at you for or mentioned positively about others. You can figure it out.